Shilpa
Shenoy -- The beginning of the affair
Hi everyone
Shilpa was the love of my life, the light of my
existence. She had immense power over my emotions and I thought, I had quite a bit of sway over hers too. She is probably married
to someone and hopefully the marriage is happy.
My whole point in writing this blog is to warn young
lovers from
I know guys, it is difficult sometimes to find a gal who will fall in love with
you in the first place, but given time and hoping that you are a normal person,
it will happen. I waited for the first 26 years of my life for this to happen.
And happen it did! If you guys are just looking to have sex and satiate your bodily
desires, then this blog is not for you.
Shilpa was a timid gal I met during the course of my
work in Chembur. She lived in Chembur
with her parents (she has a brother, who is a doctor and in
Let me describe Shilpa a little,
that might help you get a mental pic of what I
am talking about. She was about 5'3'' and 100pounds (60kg), if that. She had a
great figure and was very fair. She had flat cheek bones and classic Indian
black hair and black eyes. And she always smelt good.
While working with Shilpa, I realised
in a month that I loved the sweet and cute little ways she did things. Nothing
I did could get her off my mind: computer games, music or spending time with my
other friends. With resignation, I admitted to myself on Dec 1st 1998 that I
had fallen in love with Shilpa. I wrote her an email
on Dec ist 1998, explaining
to her my feelings. I started by explaining that every relationship starts out
usually as a friendship and then gets the chance to
blossom into something else. I also told her in that mail that if she found
this declaration to be offensive, she should not worry from my end about
bothering her about this again. I hoped we would remain friends regardless.
Shilpa was so scared at receiving this mail that she
saw me on Dec2nd evening and said that she already had a boyfriend. However,
she spent a lot of time with me and would not tell me much about her boyfriend.
She did tell me that our friendship would remain intact and I was relieved. I
made a secret vow to myself not to get involved with any girl at work in the
future. When she was ready to leave me, I think I spotted something in her eyes
which was more than just friendship that she was trying to portray.
I spent an agony filled night tossing and turning in bed and not getting any
sleep for a long time. Shilpa's words were conveying
one kind of message but her eyes told a different story. I woke up later than
usual in the morning on the 3rd and checked my email, as I usually did every
other day. Lo and behold!! There was Shilpa's email
simply saying that she would not have come and spent that time with me if she
had not felt something similar to what I felt for her!! I hugged my mother for
no good reason and with a 20-piece orchestra playing in my head, I went to meet
Shilpa.
We had to go out somewhere together and interview some people that day. As we
walked in close proximity, I could see that she was grinning and staring down
at the road mostly, very shy and coy. Our hands and bodies touched a little and
it sent shivers through my nerves.
As we were waiting in a room for someone to show up, I don't even remember who
it was now, I quickly reached over, pulled her beautiful face towards me and
kissed her cheek. She was sitting on my left so I kissed her right cheek. Since
she was very fair, I could see her ears turning red as she blushed and a minute
later, as she turned towards me to give me one of her dazzling smiles, her
blushing cheeks were in my plain view. I knew then that she was too much in
love with me to deny me anything. Knowing that was enough for me. I was happy
beyond my expectations. I did not know how to thank God.
Dec 4th 1998 I told three of my close friends about Shilpa
and they were surprised to say the least. I have always been a little awkward
when it comes to women with respect to my interest in them but I have gone and
told many other girls on other friends' behalf since I cannot see one of my
friends suffer because he is in love with a gal and cannot tell her. Of course,
no one ever thought of doing the same for me but I never stepped back. I also
spent some lucky time that day holding Shilpa's hands
in mine and savoring the moment for eternity. I remember it like yesterday, she
was wearing a white salwaar kameez
and she had her flowing hair open. I placed my head on her shoulders very
briefly since we were in public view and then withdrew it. She smiled that
great smile many times that day and I knew that the dazzling smiles now
belonged to me.
Dec 7th 1998 is another day I will not forget. If you want to know what
happened, read the next blog.
Dec7th 1998
Dec 7th 1998 is when Shilpa
came to my house for the first time. We had prearranged to meet on that day as
it was a Monday and we had a holiday from work. The understanding was that she
would call and we would then meet up some place where we could get some
privacy.
My house was empty on this day and when she called, I told her to plain come
down and visit me at home. We would be assured of privacy and we could get some
time to ourselves to discuss some vital issues. I had stayed up almost all
night, the night before and was in no condition to go out.
When Shilpa came and rang the doorbell, one of our
other mutual friends (he was more my friend than hers at this point) was
visiting. She came in to find us in conference on one of the future projects
and was very shy. However, my friend sensing the delicacy of the situation,
left in a few minutes and we were left to our own devices.
I made tea for both of us and we chit chatted about this and that. My real
intentions were to get close to her not just physically but on a mental plane
as well. So I invited her to the master bedroom to watch TV.
We were lying beside each other and after some time, I put my arms around her.
Very gently I kissed her face on the cheeks, the eyes and then her lips. She
responded by weaving her long thin fingers into my hair and pulling my face
into the hollow of her shoulder. I lay there, I don't know how long. It was the
first time I had kissed a girl and my heart was beating at a furious rate. From
what I could feel from her jugular, hers was going just as fast. I looked up at
her to see her eyes completely closed and a satisfied smile playing on her
lips.
This was going just the way I wanted. I wanted her now to open up to me. I
pulled her around to face me and embraced her completely. I had to be careful
not to hurt her since I am a big strong fella and
gently asked her to open her eyes. She did and gave me one of her dazzlers
(smiles, if you follow what I mean).
We then started to talk about our life together in the comfort of each others'
arms. Slowly she shifted her balance so that she had her head on the palm of
her left hand, lying sideways, and I moved away a little to face up to her from
my pillow. At times, she had to repeat herself three or four times since I was
caught up in the beauty of her mellow softness and the hair that was touching
my face now and again.
Dec 31st,
1998
This was Shilpa's 23rd
birthday. I had suggested to her that she could call some of her friends and we
could get together with some of mine to celebrate her birthday. I had even
arranged for total privacy in a restaurant where we could have a private lunch
and enjoy the company.
We went to the restaurant at about 2:30PM and ordered lunch. As per my
instructions, the owner closed the restaurant to other public and we had the
complete attention and hospitality of the staff. We ate and talked and all the
while I could not take my eyes off Shilpa. I was so
in love with her that she had to nudge me to get me to respond to her friends,
or my friends.
After lunch we went back to my place where we talked for some time and then her
friends left. Mine were going to hang around till a little late and Shilpa wanted a few private moments with me, which I gave
her by taking her to the bedroom and locking the door. We talked about future
marriage plans and I presented her with three of her favorite chocolate bars
with a rose stuck to the topof the package. One of
her friends had scared her about the possible trouble we could face when her
parents came into the picture. However, I had always believed that love wins
all and foolishly enough, I still believed it then.
Shilpa left after another of my friends arrived and
wished her. He had just broken up with his girlfriend of 5 and a half years and was slightly traumatic. We were going to
throw him a big stag party at our place to get his spirits back. He was leaving
for
I cannot forget this day also as I was early into this relationship and I think
Shilpa also enjoyed most of that day.